Dear God, Dear God I just want to come before you on bended knee and my face to the ground. I want to praise you for being a loving, graceful god. God, we can offer you such little in return. Nothing, actually. But still you constantly call us back to you. Why do you do that? Why do we matter to you? How can we feeble humans possibly give you anything? Why would something so powerful even care about things so insignificant? God, I just look up to you asking you for guidance. God I know that I'm not perfect by any means and I know that you don't expect me to be. But at the same time, God, I know that I still fall short of the expectations that you have for me as a daughter. I want to pray that you will be with me this weekend as I go on a retreat with the student ministry at Highpoint. I pray that you will provide me with words to say when students approach me; some with serious problems.Tell me how to handle them and that I don't get in your way. In everything that I do this weekend, and any other time for that matter, I just ask you to constantly remind me that there are other people watching and looking for an example to follow. God I know the hardest thing for me to do is to admit that I'm powerless. But I am. I know that I am. It's still hard for me to come to you, God. I'm going to be honest, it is really hard to put trust in something that I can't see. I know that you're there because I can feel you. I can see you in the trees and the sun and the bugs that crawl in the dirt. But actually being able to touch you isn't as easy, God. I know that I'm a human, and that's why it is so hard to wrap my mind around completely surrendering to something that isn't tangible. Soften my heart. God, part of me is really scared to ask you to let me see you. If I see your face, that means that everything changes. That means that my whole world will be turned upside down. I'm scared, God. I'm scared that I'm too selfish to be working with a church. I'm scared that I'm not close enough to you to lead other people to you. I'm so scared!
I also pray over this ministry at Soma. I pray that you bless it and continue to make it thrive with people who actually care about getting to know you. God I pray that you do crazy things within this building. I pray that each one of these conversations had, lessons, worship sessions- are exactly what someone needed to hear, and that it just breaks some of these people apart. I pray that anything that happens/has happened here will glorify you. I also pray that this ministry not be brought down by gossip. Gossip is like the trickiest thing for people this age. It sneaks up on you and you don't even realize that you're doing it until someone walks in the room and everything goes quiet. I'm so guilty of this, God, and you know that. I pray that you take gossiping out of my mouth. Out of my head more than my mouth, actually. Please give me the discernment to decide when things are getting hateful and when things are in good fun. Please help gossip to sound so unattractive to me, that I'm able to walk away from it, God. I pray that you bless this community, especially my group of friends; who are each going through their own personal struggles. I pray that you take those struggles and make them yours, God so that they don't have to be weighed down by them anymore. Whether it be heartbreak, or confidence, or lovingness, or forgiveness. God I pray that you take those burdens from them, and I pray that they let you take them. So again, God, I just want to thank you for everything that you've done and everything that you've put in my life. Whether it's a struggle or a blessing, I still want to thank you. I'm constantly amazed by your timeline. I know that even whenever I'm having such a bad day, or a bad week, or a bad month- somehow you're planning to use that. So even when I can only focus on what is immediately in front of me I know that you see way beyond what I see.