Anna waited for 84 years to meet Jesus. Anna held out for 84 years for God. But actually, she didn't really "hold out". Anna saw how sufficient God's promise was, and so she waited. Anna waited 84 years to see Jesus. Anna waited 84 years because she KNEW that God was going to come through.While all of Anna's girl friends and women relatives were getting married, making babies, raising a family... Anna waited. That's a humble woman right there.
I just imagine people constantly questioning her.
"Why haven't you gotten remarried?"
"What was this 'quest' you feel like God has put on you?"
"What value can you feel if you haven't remarried and had children by now?"
"After all, isn't that what a women's role is?"
And then to eachother I imagine them saying,
"Silly Anna. She thinks she can know what God has in store?"
"Stupid Anna. She contributes nothing to society; all because she only wants to spend her time in prayer to a God who doesn't listen to the idle minds of women."
What a humble woman. Not only because she took this criticism I have imagined, but because she denied what her culture thought "made you a woman".
Pride has been hitting me hard lately. I've realized that pride isn't the same thing I always thought it was. I always thought that pride was the same thing as conceit. But then I started to understand that pride can be one of the greatest strongholds that we have without realizing it. Pride can be the opposite of conceit.
Pride can be scared to go in the direction you know God is pushing you. Okay, come on guys. Stop acting dumb. You know when you feel God push you. You know the basics of what God wants from you. It absolutely does not matter how little God is actually incorporated in your life, you have a yearning (that God put inside of you) to want more for yourself. Does that mean giving up a job? Does that mean changing your major? Does that mean changing your friend group? Are you feeling tugged yet? Do you identify with any of these things? Maybe something not on this list just popped into your head?
And you’re still hesitant? Pride check.
Pride can be having a low self esteem. Girls spend so much time putting themselves down. Prideful? Noooooo. Actually, yes. Yes it is. How much time do we spend in the mirror every day criticizing ourselves? How much time does that mean we are focusing on ourselves? And all the time we are thinking about what people think about us (which are probably most if not all false)? We obsess over ourselves.
Identify with this, maybe? Pride check.
Pride can be admitting that you have a problem. For example, porn. Half of the struggle with pornography is not wanting to admit that there is an actual addiction there. There is something addicting about looking at things you know are bad on the internet. At first, you felt guilty. Now, it gets easier every time. You have a problem. Admitting that to a friend or mentor is one of the hardest things, but also the most humbling. Put away your pride for a second. Tell someone you trust what you are struggling with. Having an honest conversation with someone about the things you are most ashamed of shows humbleness.
See how pride sneaks up on us? “I don’t boast about myself. I’m good!” Pay a little closer attention to yourself. How much pride do we have to put aside to see the things that God wants to give us? Because He is a loving God who does want to give us those things that He wants for us. But He needs us to get rid of some stuff first. And the more you think about the things that God is asking us to give up, the more you see that all of those things boil down to Pride.